Hey boy
Sunday, September 24, 2006
"Hey boy, I know it hurts."
"Ya it does... it hurts so bad I don't know why. All i wanted is to be healthy, to be smart, to be everything that my parents will be proud of."
"But what is stopping you now?"
"The fact that I can't run about pretending I am well when I am not. It is a lie and it is not a lie that I can continue living with."
"And what do you plan to do next?"
"I don't know...(sobs)... I am so lost... I have never been so troubled in my life before. I can't live a life anymore...(sobs).."
"You need courage dear. And above all, you need strength and love to see you through."
"I know, but I can't, I just can't confide in anyone..."
"Confide in me. Confide in your great granny. Confide in your inner self, your inner strength, and they will see you through."
"I just wanted to be well... thats all... thats all.."
"I know it hurts. i know no one will understand. Yet it hurts because you no longer believe in Him. You no longer believe that no matter what problems there are, they are insignicant as compared to the strength of his child, who is all of us. That come what may, you will grow and defeat this fear."
"I cant..."
"Yes you can. Remember, the fact that you are put through this trial showed that you are the one who will be able to handle this. Don't give up on yourself. Above all, don't give up on Him. Don't give up on your dream which will aid thousands."
"Bless me dad, I know you are looking, listening. I won't fall. I won't."
With that, San Bei left in a mystical glow, his powers elevated the shrivering soul of mine.
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